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He was sitting in the first row of the class where I taught Computers Basics and Communication Skills. That place was reserved for him even if he was late.
He was training to be a fighter pilot in the Indian Air Force. It's obvious he didn't need the class. All he did in the class was to stare at me for an hour. But answered all my subject related questions.<\/p>
He looks like Jay Sean, only much fairer and taller. He was wherever I went.
\"I 'm three months younger to you..Hope you have no objection?\"
This was the question asked while filling the admission form. I chose silence.<\/p>
Perhaps he expected me to ask why do you want to join these classes when you are a Computers grad.\nI did not ask. May be I liked to see him everyday. But I did not want to lead someone on obviously. <\/p>
Confusion. I don't know if all girls face the same. I am surely confused.
\"What is your problem? He is so cute, intelligent and a thorough gentleman.\" My friends asked me.\nEveryday there was a red rose on my desk. There were two questions asked by him everyday in the class. <\/p>
There were queries about Hyderabad. There were subtle hints of \" I like you \".\nA month passed. I was alone in my cabin. <\/p>
He knocked the door, and asked in a gentlemanly, chivalrous manner only a fauji can ..\"May I please come in?\" <\/p>
He sat in the chair before me, as I was mentally telling myself not to go crazy. <\/p>
\"Lady, I don't want to waste time. I know all about your life. You are a little elder, conservative and civilian but makes no difference to me. It's not timepass. I am serious\".
He took a deep breath and uttered those three magical words. A minute went by silently. <\/p>
That face drives me crazy. That dimpled smile makes me insane for a while. I can feel the room lighting up. But I never said a thing, just like many girls.<\/p>
My life, my aims, my parents all flashed before my eyes. Sometimes the person is just right, but the timing isn't. How can I say yes when I am not financially independent?. <\/p>
I am 20, still studying and taking up odd jobs to support myself. How can I trust someone so easily?
And here could be a perfect person. Or may be not. How do I know? What do I want? Will it lead to a life time commitment or fall flat in between? <\/p>
Will I be able to take a heartbreak? I have seen friends suffering and is it worth the risk?<\/p>
I want to be out of parents' shadow and be alone for a while. Who am I? Do I even know myself completely?<\/p>
Another month passed by in the institute. We chatted a bit everyday, said Hi and good byes, and slowly a friendship blossomed as we think alike. He did not bring up the topic of love again, but I could see it in his eyes, and I started to think of any possibilities.<\/p>
He later revealed his training in the city is coming to an end and he will be posted in Rajasthan. That would mean a long distance relationship. Another uncertainity.<\/p>
\"Ma'am, so what did you decide? Haan ya na?\" <\/p>
\"Samar, I am not ready for a relationship yet.\"<\/p>
\"Ok, I am leaving my number with you. Do call and keep in touch. I'm happy you atleast talked unlike in the beginning\". <\/p>
\"Thank you, we will keep in touch.\" <\/p>
He is independent at a very young age and lives a simple life though his dad is a well placed Officer-in -Commanding. It's not about competing with him, but I always nurtured big dreams since childhood.<\/p>
Financially, socially, emotionally independent woman before everything takes a backseat for a man.<\/p>
Is it temporary attraction, or will it last forever...Well, let time decide.
Though I have a great respect for Samar, I'm busy chasing my dreams...Hope he understands that and waits for me..I'm gonna call him now..